Thursday, September 17, 2009


Those days I watched a drama called “My Queen”(Bai Quan Nv Wang), long time not watch any dramas. I know it is soap drama, but it really gives me some touching. the story is about a woman who is 33 years old but still single. she is very excellent in career, but failed at love. it makes me think a lot. the heroine’s life is very common nowaday, people’s social circle is limited, and they are hard to trust one another, so they only can find their pleasure in their jobs. I think I am still young, 23 years old, is it old? maybe. butI don’t think so, just my relatives, my colleauges give me the stress like I need to find a boyfriend or I need to think about marriage.

Marriage, what is marriage? it is a woman and a man exchange the rings,and register in the bureau, and live together, have children.seems not bad. one of my classmates who have graduated last year like me got married last year, she was really surprised me, it seems she got married immidately after graduation, she is satisfy with this, and this year,she gave birth to a baby,when she told the process of gave birth to a baby, her face was full of smiling as all the mothers do. when she told me that, it seems marriage and baby is far far from me, I even cant take care of myself, how can I take care of my family my child? it seems its still not what I need to think. there is a phenomena in the society is a lot of girls after they graduate, they prefer to marry a rich man than wasting time of finding a job, because it is very hard to get a job for the gaudates. it seems marriage is changing it is meaning, it is not a responsibility for the couples to make a family, but it contains a lot of elements of profit. Is it a sad thing?

For my classmate,seems her marriage is nice, but life is always not that easy. several days ago I called my friend who married several months ago. when I asked how is his life,it seems he feels very sad. he told me his wife can’t understand him and they argue a lot. his wife even said she wants to get divorce. in my mind, my friend is a very nice man, he treats everyone very nice, he can do very good business and can cook very delicious food, it seems he is so perfect, but he is facing the challenge of marriage. I didn't know how to console him when he complained to me. I think most people have their imagination about marriage before they get marry,after they get married, they will find it is not as what they think, he will face a lot of difficulties of handling the problems happening in the family, therefore,they will feel sad, frustrated. I don't know if what I think is right or not, that is just my feeling.

I still remember that afternoon,it was sunset time, I walked in the campus, the sun shined on a old couples who walked in front of me hand in hand, I was so moved at the moment. After several years, I think that is the meaning of marriage in my mind.

(The pictures are copied from internet)

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Found the fun of pictures

I reviewed some old pictures this morning,and found taking picture is really a fantastic thing,what surprised me more is for some pictures,I don't have any feeling on them when I took them,but when I reviewed them,I have so special feeling on them,it is like they are part of my old life,and they have some special feeling of life,that is really wonderful feeling.after reviewed some old pictures,suddenly I have a feeling is I want to take some changing of Chinese's life,as this year is the 60th anniversary of the new China,I think it is fun to do some thing to remember this year:)

Life is the process of choice

It is really a long time since last time I logged in,I really appreciate for a friend's help,I can see my blog again.druing the period I can't open My blog I realized how important the blog means to me,I felt mad sometimes when I want to express something but I can't.Frtunately,I can log in now.

One year later,I am looking for a job again.I don't want to change a job so easily,but I don't have choice this time,they are going to cut the salary,I think it is unacceptable,the most important thing is after thinking,I don't know what is my future position if I keep staying at this company.I don't want after several years,I still the same like other colleauges,that is really sad.I need progress and I need challege,I think I will keep the same as the other colleauges,because they don't have any desire any more after they got married,what they want is keep in their positions,and get some salary every month,that is all for them.I dont want to follow them in this way,therefore,I need to choose my life,and I know life is the process of choice,even I like my colleauges very much,I like my company very much,but for a better life,for my future,I need to abandon this,as I know I can't have all the things in one time,choose to leave is sad,but I know it is right.god bless me.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Muslim Restaurant

This sunday,we went to a muslim restaurant for dinner.That was my second time to a muslim restaurant.and it was my frist time out for dinner after my knee injured(sad,still cannt walk too much:( )I am not sure if all the muslim around the world eat the same kind of things.sometimes I feel religion is a amazing thing,it can change a lot of people's mind,eating cluture,cloting etc.

(I drunk a little beer:p)

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Days when I cannt move

Because of an accident,I slipped at the stair,even it was not a big deal,I still have to stay at home for resting,and my left leg cann't move easily.the first day after I slipped,I stayed at home,suffering the pain of my knee.there was not people at home that day,I didnt know how to prepare my meal,I didnt know how to go to the washroom.even a little movement made my whole body felt painful.there was no difference between me and the disable people at that moment.and I realized the strongest people are those disable people who are ask for help at the road by moving their bodies,I felt shame I dint give money to them most of the time,when we get used to those disable people,we only know they are some lazy guys using this way to collect money,but now I know I am wrong,even one coin can give them hope to life,disability makes them need twice endeavour than normal people,I should respect them.

Except the pain,I am also suffering the boring of always stay at the same place,I cannt out,the feeling of staying at the same place for a long time is worse than suffuring the pain of my knee if you know my friends suggested me read some books or write something.I was a helpful way to control one person.when you reading or writting,you can forget the pain,you can forget the boring feeling,you can forget the whole world,you are in your own world at that is getting hard to find this feeling now.when I at the school,if I want to control myself to study,I can go to the library,and forced myself to focus on my books.after I work,it is hard to find a place like the library to control myself focus on books,thanks god I found the feeling back now,the price is I cannt move.

Life is strange,you only cherish thing after you lose it.Only I cannt move,I ralized how important health is,people always say I want to do more excercises,I want to eat more healthy food,but we never take action or give up when we found it is difficult to make it become your habit,when one day you got sick,you suffering from the pain of your body,you know the importance of is not late if the sick is not a big deal,but no one will know what will happen next step.I heard some people died becaussse one day they realized they had cancer,and it is too the days I cannt move,i think a lot.not only we need take care ourselves,but also we need to cherish people around us,as we will never know what will happen next second,and we should abandon all the compalin,all the sadness,and focus all your attention to cherish each day,to enjoy life,it is so beautiful.if you find it is difficult,then try to smile to life everyday,when we face difficulties,try to force yourself to smile,when it becomes a habit,any problems will not problems any more.

It is not bad to experience different kinds of lives I am living the life like a disable people,but only this way I can learn a lot of things I never experience before,thanks god.

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Days in Guilin

Last weekend,I tried to escape from this nosiy city.then I went to Guilin ,hope can enjoy one moment of peaceful was not bad althought the weather was not good.the landscape is nice,but it is as amazing as I think before,maybe the view is more or less the same in most places in China.anyway,what I want to to experience something now,and breath some fresh air what is hard to find in this crowd nosiy city.

As my limited time,I just viewed some main places,I think people go to Guilin will get those places.the moutains in Guilin are really special.they have different kinds of shapes.but when I see them on the night,I felt a little scared,maybe it is a little strange for me (a person who always near the sea).anyway,it is a new feeling,which I never experience before.

When the bus passed some street corner,I really want to stop it and go to visit those nice corners,a lot of special local people’s houses make it has some nice feeling.but at that time I cannt do that,but I think I will do that if I have next chance to visit there.

The exotic thing is there are some special gods under a mountain which is located on the Guangxi Normal is forbidden to take pictures there,so there is no picture to tell you how is it inside the mountain,but it is amazing,there are a lot of gods who are controlling different people’s life,and each one is connect with your is hard to say this kind of things about god,and for me I don't believe this,but it is one of the Chinese culture.there are a lot of visitors pray infront of the god when we got there,I did too,I made a wish in front of the god who controlling my desitiny,no matter I believe or not,just tell my inner soul what I going to do.

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Languages of Flowers

Several days ago I visited my sister's friends shop,a flower shop.As a girl,I always know I am different from a lot of girls,I think my personality is closer to boys flower concerned,I can say I know nothing about it.and I dont have too much enthusiasm on them,even I like them.
my sister's friend told me a lot about the languages of flowers,but I cannt remember one,then I checked it on the wiki and other websites,I bet even I read them I still can not remember them,haha.but one thing I can sure is I believe every thing in the nature has its language like human being.I took several pictures of them,but at last what I bought was two bonsais,haha:P

Thrift - Sympathy

Carnation (in general) Bonds of affection; health and energy; fascination; alas for my poor heart
Carnation (pink) - I'll never forget you
Carnation (purple) - Capriciousness; whimsical; changeable
Carnation (red) - My heart aches for you; admiration
Carnation (solid colour) -Yes
Carnation (striped)- No; refusal; sorry I can't be with you; wish I could be with you
Carnation (white) -Sweet and lovely; innocence; pure love; woman's good luck gift
Carnation (yellow) - You have disappointed me; Rejection; disdain

?Rose (red) - Love ; I love you
Rose (white) - Eternal Love; innocence; heavenly; secrecy and silence
Rose (pink) - Perfect happiness; please believe me
Rose (yellow) - Friendship; jealousy; try to care
Rose (black) - Death?Rose (red and white) - Together; unity
Rose (thornless) - Love at first sight
Rose (single, full bloom) - I love you; I still love you
Rose bud - Beauty and youth; a heart innocent of love
Rose bud (red) - Pure and lovely
Rose bud (white) - Girlhood?Rosebud (moss) - Confessions of love
Roses (bouquet of full bloom) - Gratitude
Roses (garland or crown of) - Beware of virtue; reward of merit; crown ; symbol of superior merit
Roses (musk cluster) - Charming
Rose (tea) - I'll always remember
Rose (cabbage) - Ambassador of love
Rose (Christmas) - Tranquilize my anxiety; anxiety
Rose (damask) - Brilliant complexion
Rose (dark crimson) - Mourning
Rose (hibiscus) - Delicate beauty
Rose leaf - You may hope
Lily (general) - Purity
Lily (calla) - Beauty
Lily (day) - Coquetry
Lily (eucharis) - Maidenly charms
Lily (orange) - Hatred
Lily (tiger) - Wealth; pride
Lily (white) - Virginity; purity; majesty; it's heavenly to be with you
Lily (yellow) - I'm walking on air; false and gay
Lily of the valley - sweetness; return to happiness; humility; perferct purity

Forget-me-not--ture love

Sunflower--Pure and lofty thoughts

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Too much

Like the moment of alone,but cannt like too much
In the subway or art gallery
Need the music to warm you
Like the corner of the sunshine day,but cannt like too much
The solitude in your eyes is the island I am looking for
Like the shadow of me,but cannt like too much
Waiting for the rain to wash the memory
Look at the road
The angel will bring me to another journey
Do you believe fate?

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Discuss The Divine Comedy with Dante

Yesterday I saw an oil paint called "Discuss The Divine Comedy with Dante" on the is amazing paint,and a painting shocked the world.The painting's Dimensions is 6X2.6M,and on the painting there are 103 famous including Presiden Mao,Genghis Khan,Napoleon,George Bush,Bin Laden ,etc,and the famous clone sheep Dollly is also there.and there have some famous architectures,like Pyramid,Chinese Great Wall, is a fun Crossover.

This painting took three Chinese artists one year's time to finish.and the fun thing is at the coner of the painting there are three Chinese dress the modern clothes discussing with the Italian famous poet Dante,and nobody know who are they,actually there are the artists themselves.:)

Monday, March 16, 2009

Lichee Park

Last Saturday I went to the Lichee park(li zhi gong yuan) with my mother.After a short period of cloudy weather,it back to the sunshine weather again.why I wrote this blog so later it is becasue I am so busy these period,and I think this suitation will keep go on:(

The feeling is nice if you out at the weekend,especially on the weekend.after the whole busy week,give yourself a relax time at the weekend will make you feel life is not that stressful,and it is beautiful if you try to find it and enjoy it.
See what the lovly kids draw:

It is a family,but seems like three pigs,haha:P

And the Deng Xiao Ping is a little--------

Anyway,That was a nice weekend:)